The nobody

This week I have been told by different humans that my life was not real, and that I have not done an actual “thing”.

I have never felt so intellectually self-sufficient. I wouldn’t say my way of life these days is anything made of sobriety or discipline or any consistent practice. I touch a little bit of everything and none of anything. I move inside, inside of this lazy body, too addicted, too moody. I feel the edges. I don’t need to be told or described or explained what I am, because I ain’t. I am not loosing my mind because I have never had one.nFrom this place all I perceive is you, all I hear is your words, all I see is your faces, all I see is your gestures, your feelings, your vulnerability, your questions, your answers, your selves. Your many selves. Your many questions. Your many answers. They pass trough my edges and echo for eternity. I cannot not see you.

▶ ▲ ▼ 그림에 그리는 것 설명이 있어야 된다.

▶ ▲ ▼ 두 그림의 모델은 한글 인식이 높지 않고, 언어에 대한 기초는 높


▶ ▲ ▼ The description on the picture should be there.

▶ ▲ ▼ The models in the pictures of the two pictures have no knowledge of Korean, and the basis for languages is not high.

▶ ▲ ▼ 파이

Ernest Scott summarizes the qualities of teachers following the Path of Crazy Wis- dom in The People of the Secret (London: Octagon, 1983, pp. 229–230). • Supernatural powers.
• Ability to heal others.
• Physical indulgences.
• Takes money from others.
• Redistributes money and gifts.
• Never refrains from action because of lack of money.
• Rejects the norms of the society in which he lives and works.
• Is misunderstood because his “excesses” are considered as quirks and not as an essential part of his operations to illustrate the weaknesses of others.
• Is opposed by the orthodox authorities, civil and religious.
• Attracts many people who follow only the lure of the strange, creating an incorrect impression of his activities and associates.
• Has dance, music, or other physical movements.
• Has spent a great deal of time in mortification and also in indulgence, creating through this polarity a strange power.
• Usually only a small (“acceptable”) part of what he says and does is re- ported, and this becomes respectable and admired by his followers. He may even come to be considered, after his death, as a saint by the orthodox authorities.

Commonly used metaphors for conscience include the “voice within”, the “inner light”,[3] or even Socrates’ reliance on what the Greeks called his “daimōnic sign”, an averting inner voice heard only when he was about to make a mistake. Conscience, as is detailed in sections below, is a concept in national and international law,[4] is increasingly conceived of as applying to the world as a whole,[5]

Sigmund Freud regarded conscience as originating psychologically from the growth of civilisation, which periodically frustrated the external expression of aggression: this destructive impulse being forced to seek an alternative, healthy outlet, directed its energy as a superego against the person’s own “ego” or selfishness (often taking its cue in this regard from parents during childhood).[58] According to Freud, the consequence of not obeying our conscience is guilt, which can be a factor in the development of neurosis; Freud claimed that both the cultural and individual super-ego set up strict ideal demands with regard to the moral aspects of certain decisions, disobedience to which provokes a ‘fear of conscience’.[59]

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